Blog Challenge day 26

something/someone you miss:

I have been feeling really nostalgic lately. Maybe it has been this post challenge and the fact that it had me pulling out old yearbooks and scrapbooks and the discussions Doug and I have had as we looked through them or maybe it's the winter doldrums. I'm not sure.

But when I set down to answer this I had many things come to mind and one of them is a few old friends of mine. Doug and I talked about it and about how there are some people that you would love to see again and just see how they are but there are a few friends that were so special and so important to you that you think about them often. I miss a few friends but there were two guys in particular that I miss.They were both such a big part of my life that I can't help but miss the friendship I shared with them.
Doug and I were talking about it because he knew one of them and knew of the other one but didn't know either really well. I asked if he thought it was weird. He said he didn't. But as we talked I thought even if I did see these guys again it probably wouldn't be the same. So, I am sure I won't ever have those friendships back but I do miss them.

I also think about my family. Once upon a time I had that family that was always together. We were together on every holiday, were having parties and get togethers all the time. We gathered at my parents house for New Years Eve sleep overs and my friends would want to come to those instead of teenager parties because my family was so fun. But over the years there has been a shift. We had a major family issue that led to us all being estranged for a while and then slowly one by one we came back together but I don't think it has ever been the same. As children grew up, families started doing their own things and also hanging out with their respective friends and in laws more. Some of us changed so much that the relationships just aren't the same anymore. And sometimes I think I'm the only one that longs for those  days when we used to gather around at my parents house for Christmas Eve AND Christmas day. For those days when we were all best friends. I miss it terribly. I joke that I think family and gatherings are the most important to me of anyone else in the family and I'm the only one that lives away... but I think it's true.

I also miss each family member individually since we don't see each other often but My Mom is coming out in a few weeks!!!!! Yay!

I miss the carefree days of my teenage and mid twenty years when I had no real responsibility. But, I would never give up my responsibilities for that again because as hard as it is to be a mom I love those girls more than anything.

I miss jumping in my car and driving up the canyon. I used to spend so much time in the mountains. I went camping all the time. I would sometimes drive up and just park and sit by a river and read or write. I love hiking. I love the feeling of the early morning sunshine coming over the mountain peaks when you are cold after a rough night of camp sleep. I have never been camping with Doug and the girls. It's not the same out here. I miss using the mountains to always know where I was at.

I miss lots of things.